yep. It is official.

Yes i probably ended a wonderful relationship with the one guy who understood me. Yes i regret it. Yes i thought about it. Yes i cried. I am crying.

Why did this feel so right but now feel so wrong.

I was prepared to spend the rest of my life with him. I just felt... felt I deserved someone who would tell me he didn't deserve me and someone to constantly remind me of his love. Not with words. With actions. With gifts. Hell even with song.

I feel like i am going to vomit i am so scared and upset.

Luckily Jen will be having me over for dinner tonight, in Columbus. She is making me cobbler and I dont know what else.

/sigh /cry

-torii