"I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere"

-"not a pretty girl" Ani DiFranco

Aww, no face

Defining Myself

This Chapter in my life seems much blurrier and more complex than i imagined. Defining who i am and who i will represent myself to be seems to be the main topic at hand when i lay my head on my pillow at night. While i have never had a problem knowing who i was.. defining it and fine tuning that is exposing itself to be troublesome.

Ya. I feel just like this.

I am ready to move back home, save the mulah for a bit. Then possibly moving back out, alone.

Mom is always telling me, ya you really should just live alone because it seems you cannot live with other people. Which is proving to be true.

Roughly a month and half left. Maybe instead of moving back out i can be saving up to go to Europe for a month, and just backpack. That is something i have always wanted to do, and I guess now is the time to do it.

Meh, the whole mess has got me frustrated enough that i am losing concentration, i forget what i am doing at times. Honestly sometimes i am just flabbergasted by other people, what they are capable of doing, what they say during it, and their response to your sanity.

One more way to prove I am not good with people. Unfortunately i feel i can read people well enough, just interacting with these other HUMANS just grows on you from day to day.

geesh.

Mom got a moziac piece into this art show at the DAI for students and teachers. The reception is today. Mom is pretty stoked about it and has my whole day planned out.
I am proud of her, she doesnt realize how big of an honor it really was to get her piece into the show, she is just assuming that they took everyones, bah.
She did a great job, and they recognized that
Now i just need to get a piece in, i didnt qualify cause I have not taken a class there this past year.

Nrrrd Grrrl